My own damned worst enemy

[lllookalive]

Okay. I really dont help myself out too much. The only tv I've been watching are Six Feet Under and Dead Like Me (promising titles, hm?), and a couple suspense movies, and I've been reading a murder-mystery series for the past couple weeks. Essentially, I live by myself. In the middle of godsdamned nowhere. Oh, and I've been watching the news (local news is having this major binge of rape/murder/kidnapping coverage, fyi). Just for the record, I'm not questioning the source(s) of my constant stream of nightmares I've been having, and my increased paranoia. And I keep trying to find things that are fun and make me laugh (funny movies, books, etc), but either I've already seen/read them a million times, or they just sound crappy. I do, however, keep a Calvin and Hobbes volume under my muder mysteries at all times, for middle of the night paranoia sessions. I'm still such a kid. Its kinda fun in a way.
Totally different topic, one of the best smells ever is maple syrup and pears.