what will i do when i don't have you to hold onto in the dark?

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Ugh, this has taken me long enough.

Hey, manipulant, I hope you love me with all of your bourbon heart, okay?



Two more for the Into The Woods set. (And I post in the order they were drawn, not the order of the chapters. Just... FYI. Like it matters.)

I feel like at this point it's mostly pointless/redundant to state just how completely I employ the term "loosely based upon", but for posterity. VERY. VERY LOOSELY BASED UPON.

Frankelstilskin


In what was probably one of the most appropriate casting decisions made within fandom, Frank Iero plays a guitar-toting Rumpelstiltskin. Strums straw into gold and doles out free relationship advice. Bonus penis-having recognition abilities.



The Pea Episode


WAITWAITWAIT HEAR ME OUT, IT MAKES SENSE, I PROMISE. Well. Kind of it does.
So the Princess And The Pea. Better known as the Pea Episode. I had no idea what to draw, because it's all... tame. Like, nothing really horrible happens to anybody, there's no impending doom, no swan-dives into giant piles of thorns. Everyone is kind of cranky and petulant, but that doesn't exactly translate to my, uh. Style. If you could call it that. But then there's this creepy-ass dream sequence with pseudo-zombie Brendon (manipulant, correct me if my interpretation's wrong) that goes all nuts and starts pushing people off cliffs and just being all sketchy all over the place. So duh. Artistic license blah blah excuse to draw creepy veiny organ-chair blah.



and night comes to Tallahassee


This just sort of happened while I was listening to Oceanographer's Choice on repeat. John Darnielle writes some of my most very favorite words.



And a bonus doodle!

you are my anchor


My Man Without Wax fangirling, let me show you it.
Although, I'm pretty sure that when they put You are my anchor on their band shirts, they meant it in the nice way.
...Ohwell.



Bigger, shinier versions here, at my Blogspot.
...Maybe someday I'll even have followers. And like. triple-digit pageviews. Lol.

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so many people get sent my art when I'm working on things, I found I produce better things when I step back from it and ask for outsider opinions. I mean, it might make perfect sense to me, but if it doesn't to like, my housemate, or my mother, it wont make sense to anyone else tbh. I think it's a good thing, it's not hand holding? :D

and i love that image! bathing suit!ryro. I laughed. out loud. at work. My co-worker gave me an odd look. Such is life. :D

I used to worry about my bbb authors being a bit ... dissapointed by the scenes I'd choose to illustrate. they were never "BIG MOMENT" scenes or anything, just little moments in the story that endeared me to them. Then I just ... stopped caring? because like, I don't do well at illustrating BIG things, i like taking little moments and amplifying them instead. :D

I love stage gay in unexpected concerts like that. :D

Oh I love Cupid's, so jealous! :D :D that sounds like an awesome night!

The Cobra/GCH side of bandom is how I got into it, I drew a lot of cobra art, and some panic sometimes, but then I basically got asked to draw MCR a lot. I didn't ... really listen to them before bandom? Cobra/GCH/TAI crew are definitely my favourite things in bandom though. So much love for them <3

Sydney is more like San Francisco though, with it's beaches and stunning and tanned peeps and sunny weather and large gay population.
Melbourne is like, this overcast cold city, with bitingly cold winds coming of the antartic. I think if melbourne had the population sydney did we'd have more creative jobs and people wouldn't have to move to sydney. :D

I avoided doing art as a degree for that same reason; I don't really want to turn it into a job, it sucks all the life and fun out of it for me. :D I wish my uni had a bit more ~art in my asian cultural core classes; but I did do this amazing class on the ramanaya where we basically wrote fanfic every week, and at the end I did a short comic retelling of the kidnapping of Sita, but with like, MAFIA and HIPSTERS and shit. idek what I was doing, but I got 110% for my final grade for the course. *is awesome*

I love being paid to do things like that, back when I had just started at this job and web orders weren't so over the top, I used to be paid to stand in line at the post office every day; then stop by at this little gallery on my way back to the office. I miss doing that now that we have someone pick up all our parcels everyday. (speaking of, i need to get onto packing todays orders, it never ends SIGH SIGH.)

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Oh, what I meant by handholding is when I inevitably have one of my giant meltdowns and freak out and threaten to tear up all my stuff and delete it from online. It... will happen. Just to warn you. I get stuck in these notgoodenoughnotgoodenough loops. I'm aware even as they're happening are totally irrational and crazy, so I have a couple of people I know will talk me down if I ask. That's what I meant, mostly. I need... managing. The whole V&V: It Came series thing made me a little nuts, because I couldn't tell if I was pissing people off on my flist, or like, making myself look like an idiot or whatever. I'm not very accustomed to fandom interaction, especially on that level, so it got a little nerve-wracking. So just know that when I'm wigging out, I'm usually aware of how irrational I sound.

Usually my feedback while I'm in-progress on a piece comes from whoever's around in person at the time (I had a makes sense to me/not to them moment over the first try with Frankelstilskin's background. Ugh.), so it'll be fun to have a wider opinion base to draw from.

Something I've been craving more of his FOB fic. I'm shameless for a nice, sweet, derpy Pete/Patrick, and I think it's because at this point in time, stuff that was written for them back in the day is like legitimate fiction. They're both so far-removed from that scene now in real life that it's just awesome stories with some vague historical context. Plus, fictional them tend to be some of my favorite things about fanfiction in general. Same goes for TAI and CS, since they literally ENCOURAGE the fanfic writers, I feel that reading anything for them is just ten times more amusing. Watching Alex Suarez talk about, "Yeah, man. I stole Ryan Ross from Pete Wentz. It was so nice they thought of me! :DDD" cracked my shit up forever. That is the reaction I'd have to people writing fic about me. Like, yeah some of it's nuts (Waycest NO BUENO), but in the end it's all just fiction and it's funny to see what people come up with.

Okay, climate-wise, Melbourne sounds like Chicago, yeah. I cannot WAIT to be back up to my eyeballs in snow. I can't even tell you.

Oh. Oh my god. Ramayana mafia hipsters? ...What are the odds I could read this if I asked reeeeally nice? That is AWESOME. I had an Indian art history class wedged in there, too, but mostly my fangirling comes from having the Ramayana on audiobook when I was a kid. *dork in training ALWAYS* I dropped out of high school and went right to college, so I had basically no idea what I wanted to do. I'm glad I did art and had fun and made the excuse to get better, but I'm also glad I have more than just art for professional goals.

DUDE! Sylvia Ji (on the gallery site)! Did she design/inspire the Jose Cuervo billboards that are up right now? ...Or maybe you guys don't have them, idk. They just look EXACTLY like her stuff and I pass two on my way home every day and I've been meaning to draw something based around them for ages. And wow, it's nice your shop is doing well, but that sucks about the complete lack of fun-time.

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I need hand holding to get through being an adult; I loose it at the most irrational things (and the whole while I'm doing it, I'm aware of just how totally irrational I'm being) so I think i get you. maybe? At least you know you're being irrational, that helps.

& if you ever want to hit me up via email etc with 'art opinions?!' - speep.me [at] gmail.com = the best way to get in touch with me. :D

I find MCR fic creeps me out for the most part because the boys in MCR are so anti-fic about them. They hate it. So it just seems mean if we keep writing it?
Cobra and their love of fanfic are my favourites, ever. Nate's told a story about his dad reading fic about him and his best friend on the internet once, and his father, assuming it was a true-facts report had emailed nate right away to ask 'NATE, WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE GAY? ALSO DID YOU KNOW THESE PEOPLE SEEM TO KNOW A *LOT* ABOUT YOUR PERSONAL LIFE. D: ' - which really, poor nate.

(and I love pete/patrick, that fic is always so sickenly sweet and fluffy. It's like my pick-me-up OTP? :D )

I haven't seen the Jose Cuervo billboards (i don't know what Jose Cuervo is so I don't think they have much of an australian market) but tbh, it's probably Sylvia Ji's stuff. She's the queen of appropriating mexican/native american culture in her art. I've yet to decide if I approve, I've never really looked into WHY she does it.

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I feel like a certain level of irrational freakout once in awhile is good for the soul. Keeps shit real, idk. I'm lucky, I have people I can text at 1am when I'm hiding in the kitchen at work trying to figure out why I bother existing. Fifteen minutes and some OMG STFU YOU DON'T SUCK text messages later, I'm a functional human being again. It's a system. :D Ironically, actual adult shit like my work and career and grad school and like, bills and whatever? Usually doesn't phase me. (Just call me Cleopatra, queen of Denial.)

Hahah look out, I have this habit on Thursdays especially after work of going completely manic and emailing hapless victims these ridiculous flails about nothing. I'm deathscytheheck @ gmail dot com, and you're more than welcome to hit me up any time. And idk your feelings on Twitter, but I'm lllookalive.

Dude, RIGHT? MCR fic has basically lost all appeal for me. There are some REALLY really AU ones I still love, but that's because they're basically just familiar names stuck in awesome concepts. But yeah, once they freaked out about all the fic (which yeah, they get some crazies), I mostly lost interest.

But omg NATE NAVARRO. CAN I JUST SAY. ♥ ♥ ♥
That whole band. I don't even know what to do with them, besides like. Laugh at them forever with boundless adoration. Speaking of, this might be relevant to your interests. I also love the Twitterfests that go on between TAI and CS, and William talking about how Gabe is the best fuck in bandom so would fans please write them together? Ohmygodddd. These people.

OTP. YES. Or, since I'll never be able to un-think it after reading this one ridiculously meta Pete/Patrick, OH PEE TEE. They're sort of my favorites, with this awesome balance of all their slash fic being so far removed from present reality that I can read it without feeling weird, and then their present selves just having this epic long distance bff bromance. Tweeting about spending Easter together and shit. Like, way to be, boys. Way to be. And Patrick's ongoing fits this last tour of his (and I can vouch for this firsthand) about HOMG WTF FALL OUT BOY IS NOT BROKEN UP CALM THE FUCK DOWN EVERYONE I'M GONNA SING A SONG NOW. >:(((((
Only actually less >:( and more 8D

Oh, right. Jose Cuervo is tequila. Sorry. XD
I'm thinking if it isn't her, it's directly inspired by. It's this blue, black, and white Dia De Los Muertos face thing that looks just like her stuff. I'm not really sure about her reasoning, either, but I have a hard time disapproving. Maybe in a certain sense it's a little exploitative? I think it would really depend on her public presentation and attention to cultural awareness/diplomacy. Personally, on a purely aesthetic level, I love it. It's just my brand of over-the-top anachronistically-geared strange. Plus I have this giant gooey weak spot where Mexican sugar skull/death mask imagery is concerned.

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Oh dude, bills or whatever don't bother me it's more like, finding mold in my house and having the biggest freak out imaginable. I think it's more I'll be kicking along being awesome at this 'being an adult lark' then something throws a wrench in the works and I lose it.

dude, i love emails. I can't like, endlessly browse things at work, but I can email and stuff (and slowly reply here, whilst I wait for things to upload.) and twitter, i've just added you (and you've added me back, so that doesn't really need to be announced!)

I only really like MCR fic like, that one, were gerard is a priest and frank gets stigma and stuff. Epic and awesome and only really playing on the basics of their personalities.

Oh oh oh, that post. So much Ryland and Alex; those two are my favourite people. of all bandom. hands down. I kind of wish there was more Alex/Ryland epic bromance fic. I don't even care what it's about, i just want fic about them being bffs. (It is so weird that the bands that don't mind people writing fic, have so few fic in the scheme of things.)

I love the pete/patrick dynamic in fic. It just warms my heart. So much.

The whole issue sometimes goes over my head with the 'APPROPRIATION IS SO RASCIST' rants that tumblr kids get on their soap boxes over; because I've always seen appropriation as a good thing? you're including cultures other than your own in your life? I just get a bit iffy about when you're exploiting someone else's culture in a disrespectful way for your own personal gain that it's lame. (Her art is gorgeous though, so I like it, I just want to know why she does it? Her bio doesn't really... explain anything.)

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Fair point. I used to live in the deep South (please make jokes), and the last summer I spent after graduation living alone in this ancient townhouse deal was fucking TRAUMATIC. There were spiders the size of small dogs, and I ended up spending nearly every night on the phone with my then-girlfriend, wrapped up in mosquito netting and crying while clutching a can of Raid while she researched whatever breed of monstrosity I described so I'd know the best way to kill it. I had no internet so I'd have to tell her, like, "Uh, it's huge and brown and hairy and it leaped at me from around a corner. FIND OUT WHAT IT IS AND IF IT'S GONNA LAY EGGS IN MY EAR." /tangent

Oh good. So do I. And I have a fun habit of sending them while drunk. And also posting to LJ while drunk. And Twitter. Just... fair warning. Email is actually better for me for legit conversations, too, especially while at work, since I can access email really easy from my phone, but LJ kills it.

As MCR AU fic goes, have you read The Anatomy Of A Fall or A Guided Tour Of The October Country? Both by novembersmith. They're my personal favorites and SO MUCH of what I draw is rooted in those fics and the imagery there, and a lot of Bradbury by proxy. And they're so, so AU, it's just names and yeah, like you said, really basic archetypes of the pre-existing personalities.

Dude, isn't it weird how they don't have much fic? You'd think people would be ALL OVER that shit, like, seeing as the bands promote it. Psh. Lame. I want more Alex/Ryland rad bromance in general. I mean, their existences basically constitute fic without even trying.

When nothing else in life makes me happy, a good Pete/Patrick makes me happy.

I agree, I'd feel more comfortable exploring her work if there were more explanation around it. But I also agree that yeah- isn't the idea of restricting yourself to only taking aspects of your own culture or whatever a little... contradictory? To the idea of art in general. Or, to the idea of, oh. I don't know. Modern society? ...Heathens.

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god, I think my flip outs would be a hundred times worse if I didn't have the internet. I NEED TO GOOGLE HOW TO FIX MY PROBLEM RIGHT THE FUCK NOW. and if my problem is not something that is instantly fixable (ie the internet tells me I need to wait.) I get very, very anxious about it.

haha, man, we should really carry this over to the email dude, this comment chat has already collapsed it's gone on that long! :D

I don't think I've actually read either of those, I don't read much MCR fic so yeah, I've heard the names but never actually ...read them. I'll totally read them when I get a chance though! If they inspired so much art from you, they must be awesome! :D

Oh god, I just, Alex/Ryland, their life is an epic fic of impossibly adorable meet/cutes and hipster awesome. They grew up together, and like split up for seven years to do their own things (drama school, being a chef etc) but then like, one day, just ran into each other in a store or something and decide to start a fairly awesome band (then get internet stalked by gabe saporta. the end.) - why is there no fic? D:

word dude. I think people get a bit too tied up in being so politically correct; and idk, like, how can you learn about something and not ... learn something from it/appropriate it into your life?