urgh

[lllookalive]

i know i bitch way too much. i know i need to acclimate and get used to things and then maybe i'll be fine. but what if i just dont want to? argh. i think thats my problem. i'm hanging on to things that i refuse to let go of both consciously and subliminally. oh well. thats life, right?
i'm trying to give myself the afternoon off, since i had my art history exam this morning and turned in my two pending projects last night and today, but i have another (big) one due on thursday that i havent even been able to start, and i have the exam for my job to study for, too. true, i have all day tomorrow for the project, and i really really need to rest, but its like i cant sit still. i'm stuck on overdrive. i'm also chronically tired and hungry, so if i dont take a break now, will it really make any difference later?
i'm also being anti-social as all fuck. i talk to my room mate and this guy from 2D. thats about it. i had lunch with alan and devon by default (a.k.a. they wouldnt leave me alone, not matter how horrible i was to them. fuckers.), and i'm still feeling really tweaky around devon. he's too fucking nice to me.