I am emo. Hear me whine

A Great Funk decendeth. And it has nothing to do with the Deathcurry.
I woke up and was fine for about half an hour before i just felt like yuck. I've had the overwhelming desire to listen to angry emo/screamo all day and glare at everyone. So I guess I haven't quite kicked adolescence. Good to know... I guess. I'm just angry that I dont have my A.F.I. CD. And I would friggen kill for Matthew Goodband right about now but NOOOO my cd disappeared last spring. *SOB* If anyone knows a good place to find it, I fiiinnally have Bittorrent.
Its so lame, too. Nothing bad's happened. If anything, things've been better. Me and Joe had a great six-month 1/2 anniversary. It was sort of a big deal for me, since I haven't ever had a real relationship with a shelf-life of more than two or three max. SixFlags was fun; YAY ROLLERCOASTERS!! I had really really terrible cramps almost the whole time, though, so I felt sooo bad because he spent all the time and effort and money to get me there and half the time I was almost crying it hurt so bad. But I had fun anyway. Screw you, body.
I made home-made ravioli last night. The pasta dough is a demon and sticks to everything. Was really good, tho. We walked down River Street after. And Joe, I know you're reading this, but I dont care: Wow, I'm really sick of romance right now. I need a closer friend around here that I can glom onto when I'm upset. The problem is, I *am* that friend to all my friends, so its hard sometimes. A boyfriend just isn't enough. Neither is two. LYNNSIE OR MARIEL GET BACK HERE, DAMMIT!!
...I hate feeling lonely.
I know I'm whining and I shouldn't be. Everything is basically fine, life-wise, but sometimes things get... Stuck-feeling.
OHFUCKINGWELL

If you're anti-social and you know it, clap your hands.

This is so my own damn fault.

Weapon (Matthew Good Band)

Here by my side, an angel
Here by my side, the devil
Never turn your back on me
Never turn your back on me, again
Here by my side, it's Heaven

Here by my side, you are destruction
Here by my side, a new colour to paint the world
Never turn your back on it
Never turn your back on it, again
Here by my side, it's Heaven

Careful, be careful
Careful, be careful
This is where the world drops off
Where the world drops off
Careful, be careful
You breathe in and you breathe out
For it ain't so weird
How it makes you a weapon
And you give in
And you give out
For it ain't so weird
How it makes you a weapon
Never turn your back on it
Never turn your back on it again

Careful, be careful

Here by my side, it's Heaven